Job 3:25: “What I always feared has happened to me. What I dreaded has come true.”

Old Job was a very careful and cautious man when it came to protecting his integrity and that of his family. The Bible tells us the man would daily offer sacrifices for his children, “Perhaps my children have sinned and cursed God in their hearts.” Job 1:5 Diligent parents probably understand this sentiment quite well.

However, in our laidback, carefree world, many people might identify Job’s behavior as being too obsessive-compulsive or Type-A personality. But nothing was more important to Job than integrity. Even when his friends and relatives encouraged him to renounce God and die during his darkest trial, the man would not abandon what he professed to believe (Job 2:10).

With that thought in mind, I would like to give testimony regarding a current crisis. My greatest unavoidable horror has happened! For the last 18 years, I have spent many sleepless nights trying to imagine what I would do when the day finally arrived. I speculated whether I would master an intractable situation whose origin was not my making, but that I would be left to solve alone.

Well, last week, God’s gentle Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, “The day you feared has come!”

I knew it was finally crunch time. Oddly enough, I didn’t waste energy pleading with God to “Spare me by pulling strings in my favor!” making something else happen that I would like better.

As I walked into the flames, my only prayer was…Give me wisdom, show me the path, guide me!” (James 1:5)

For the first time in a long time, I have actually “practiced what I preach!” Taking my hands off the controls, I have surrendered to God and said, “Show me and that will suffice. Give me Your wisdom and that will be enough!”

When I taught school, we attended workshops on teamwork and trust. We would stand back to front in pairs. The first person would relax and fall into the arms of the person behind, but you had to really believe or else automatic reflexes would never surrender your body to the partner you could not see! And this is exactly what I have done this week. I have finally confessed, “The situation is much too great for me, so I willingly and blindly surrender to fall into your hands, Oh God.”

Consequently, I have seen more unexpected miracles in one week’s time than I have seen in years! It has literally been scary watching God work! I have spent seven days saying, “Holy Spirit, pray for me!” according to St. Paul’s words, “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.” (Romans 8:26-27)

In the midst of my most horrifying storm, I have literally been gliding on eagle’s wings, just as the Prophet Isaiah said, “They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint!” (Isaiah 40:31)

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